Love and Life ~ Davson

Somebody should teach me and show me how to change the blogskin...
my garfield blog look so messy...
haiz...

Blogging is a form of writing a diary...
I blogging right now is to write some of the things that i want to remember in the future..
When i came back to this page again..
I wanna to know what is my past...
What were i thinking back then...
What are some of the things i have done, and keep reminding myself..

Firstly, letting you all know about my grades nowadays...
Damn It.. i don't know what has happening to me..
I getting grades like B and C...
Omg if i am going at this rate.. i cannot get 3.8 and above anymore...
I been trying to see where have i gone wrong...
Never mind i take this 2 weeks as a lessons to improve more than a grade A...
I think i should do a reflection Journal For the Week Performance...
Pick up some of the skills that i had lost after 5 weeks break...
Must Pay alot of attention and do quality thinking...
A question must solve with many thinking...
I dun care if it waste time.. as long it get me there..
i know i be fine...

2ndly,
I am in love with lavenders!!
Lavenders Flower... not a girl
Don't anyhow think..
Why?
I don't know leh... i just love the smell...
It gave me feeling of a whole new love and life is about to begin...
The usual image of lavender that form in everybody's mind
is the Purple long shape flower...
If you wanna find more meanings about lavender
http://www.proflowers.com/flowerguide/rosemeanings/lavenderrose-meanings.aspx
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Ok...
Now is the part the reason why i stay awake and blog now is because...
Emotional Feelings...
I am becoming more and more understand of my family state now...
Last time my father did many wrong decisions...
now he is in alot of debts...
I been blaming so many things...
Living in my life... is a pain
There was once my brother told me...
"Wenda, dun blame for born in such a poor family, right now you
have to think how to act wisely and dun make wrong decisions in life.
Don't make this mistake like your father do...
In future, when you have your own family,
You must not do the same thing to your kids...
It is not your fault to born in such a family...
But you still can change your life..."

WHY? WHY? WHY?

However, i am grateful that i have a caring, thoughtful and STRONG second brother...
And a loving mother...
Talking about my mother, i did many many foolish things...
WHY DIDN'T I TREAT MY MOTHER NICELY?
I already know that my mother couldn't walk properly...
And YET WORK SO HARD FOR MY FAMILY...
And she is old already...
So much worries...
My brother always advice me to treat my mother well...
Always teach me how to be a good person..
Always ask me to Be Strong...
At times, even my brother don't talk about his feelings...
i also can tell that he is also quite sad about his life...

Even a little countryside boy aged 13,
understands a important thing of life,
And He called in to the radio station to share with everybody
something that God share with him...
Although, i not a christian or what...
but this video is good...
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=131994416160&ref=mf

And one more thing is that there was this father...
A very strong and old father...
i not going to compare or what...
i know i should accept my fate...
however, this video is not telling me to compare that
this father is better my...
It is telling me that be a father like him...
Be a STRONG person...
Because I CAN do all things through Him who
strengthens me.

Never complain too much of things in life ....
They are not your faults...
It is like this...
It got a purpose why ...
It is about accepting it , and do it whole heartfully..